Different people, different things..

It's hard to look at myself and see beauty, when I can feel all my flaws.
It's hard to think of you and accept the fact that you are so different now.
It's hard to know that he lives three states away.
It's hard to think that a connection, undeniable and so fiery, could be with someone who hurts me so bad.
It's hard to understand what drives my feelings and my actions.
It's hard to say no. It's harder to say yes.
It's hard to believe you are a better person, you were so good before, I think you were better then.
It's hard to watch you fall for me.. when you are worth so much, and I am not for you.
It's hard to be nice, when I am angry at other people, I'm sorry I took it out on you.
It's hard to smile when I want to cry. It's hard to be happy when I'm not.
It's hard to feel so alone.

Autumn Equinox

I'm looking outside my window this very moment, and I can see the sunshine and the white clouds lounging in the sky. But the song playing through my speakers is telling me something different. Cold air, that first breath as I walk outside so early in the winter morning. The way the sun seems to still be sleeping and how the chill slips under the edge of my jacket and gives my skin goosebumps.. I want to just stand and breathe in, feel the air entering my lungs and circulating throughout my entire body..
I look outside at this very moment.. and the song is lying.. it's still warm, its still summer in the desert.. but not for long.

Beats