the last 4 months

i officially have four months to live out my reckless, rebellious teenage-hood i never acted on. i have no idea where to start. but great things will come from this, i just know it.

make love to everything you touch

a constant desire to feel life passionately will leave you in a beautiful mess and with your heart floating through the clouds. i am so lovesick for these small moments that drive my world into sun-spotted infiniteness.

again

and just when i thought everything was getting better..
i feel terrible again

Religion vs. Church vs. Belief

i believe.

i feel Him more when i see the patience radiate through the passerby's i encounter

i feel Him more when i see the smile, the acknowledging glance, glimmer of hope in someone's movement

i believe

thats all i need

you

this song always reminds me of you and of this world we've spun
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=24o9O_wzceE

now it's time for me to let go

i cry out in desire for those who have slipped through my fingers, those who burned my tongue but disappeared like a shadow in the sun..

in the tangles of desire

and as you taunt me and tease me on the daily, i remember the way you made me feel a year ago.. the way just your presence electrified me to the bone.. i still dream at night that you will remember these moments and give into me..

"the dark room"
deep red
like the blood rushing
through your pulsing veins
smooth, melting on
my skin
the dress you are eyeing,
dying
to take of my
flushed body
impatient with anticipation
my breath calls for you
landing on your neck
hot and sweet
my hands
twisting
through your dark hair
cinnamon on your lips
let me taste you
scratches on my back,
it's hard to resist
my skin touching yours
deep red
like your teasing mouth
running over my collarbone
under the glow
of the dark room lights
my only thought is
you
your rough hand
pressing me tight
against your arched chest
tongue through my teeth
tracing down
your ridges...
rip me to pieces
my dress is on the floor
deep red

White Bunny

in my hands
i hold you
newborn
soft and warm
i love you with an unguarded passion
you respond with quiet sounds
and you cuddle in close to me
you love me fiercely back
but the world is bright and new
and you jump from my hands
to explore and see and know
you run fast and far
i chase and cry out
i follow you
i need to hold you, protect you
i need to love you
and feel your love back
you pass through the gate
and i am jailed inside
i climb and jump with no luck
but suddenly you return
my white bunny no more
you have grown, bigger with gray markings
but i still love you, i have loved you all along
and you still love me.. though i hold on tight to never let you go again
you are willing to stay, willing to love and be loved
and i am happy once again