Waiting

I am so sorry. But now it's time for us to move forward. I will fix this. I won't give up. East coast or down the street, you will still mean the same to me. I won't let you go.

what is it that makes us want to be skinner? skinner than skinny? what is it that makes us want to drop five pounds from the five pounds we just dropped? what is it?

Don't be too easy on yourself.. don't be to hard on yourself.. people keep changing what I need to be to myself. But here is what I believe, I fucked up. I made a mistake, one that changes things. But I was honest to you, I was ready to grow and learn from it, but you left me in the dust. And I'll I have learned is that people don't forgive, people don't truly care. Because I truly care.. and when you made a mistake I was willing to look past it and form something stronger with the truth in my hands. I made a mistake, it was horrible, but if you can't even try to move past it with me, than were you really ever trying to go anywhere with me?

starting again

things change fast, i feel so unwelcome in my own life, like it doesn't want me there. i've let great things go, and bad things take me in. i've been making mistakes and learning fast and painfully. i've been crying, screaming, i've been scared and lost and embraced and sick and forgotten and involved and let go. i have no idea where to go, if i should walk or run.. but i can only move forward towards the infinite possibilities.