starting again

things change fast, i feel so unwelcome in my own life, like it doesn't want me there. i've let great things go, and bad things take me in. i've been making mistakes and learning fast and painfully. i've been crying, screaming, i've been scared and lost and embraced and sick and forgotten and involved and let go. i have no idea where to go, if i should walk or run.. but i can only move forward towards the infinite possibilities.